big wishlist of self loathe.

• wish I photographed maybe even slightly well when anywhere near my friends
• or like my face looked in any way nice at an angle that isn’t the back of my head
• wish I wasn’t the size of a planet and had my very own moon
• wish my makeup stayed on my face for once
• wish I had ugly friends but not even one of um, nope
• not even one is ugly
• they’re all beautiful and lovely people
• why isn’t their beauty rubbing off on me
• why
• remember that time i looked nice?
• no? me neither
• wish I didn’t keep being told that I’ll ruin everything
• i’m the worst human ever
• don’t know why I expect nice things cos no they don’t happen
• wish I had even maybe even a tiny bit of money
• wish I didn’t always feel like I was pestering everyone
• but I pretty much am
• doesn’t even feel like anyone likes me anymore
• wish people weren’t reading this and thinking about how pathetic I am
• going to become a recluse until I maybe start to like myself
• goodbye